Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Bored



Bored by Margaret Atwood

All those times I was bored
out of my mind. Holding the log
while he sawed it. Holding
the string while he measured, boards,
distances between things, or pounded
stakes into the ground for rows and rows
of lettuces and beets, which I then (bored)
weeded. Or sat in the back
of the car, or sat still in boats,
sat, sat, while at the prow, stern, wheel
he drove, steered, paddled. It
wasn't even boredom, it was looking,
looking hard and up close at the small
details. Myopia. The worn gunwales,
the intricate twill of the seat
cover. The acid crumbs of loam, the granular
pink rock, its igneous veins, the sea-fans
of dry moss, the blackish and then the graying
bristles on the back of his neck.
Sometimes he would whistle, sometimes
I would. The boring rhythm of doing
things over and over, carrying
the wood, drying
the dishes. Such minutiae. It's what
the animals spend most of their time at,
ferrying the sand, grain by grain, from their tunnels,
shuffling the leaves in their burrows. He pointed
such things out, and I would look
at the whorled texture of his square finger, earth under
the nail. Why do I remember it as sunnier
all the time then, although it more often
rained, and more birdsong?
I could hardly wait to get
the hell out of there to
anywhere else. Perhaps though
boredom is happier. It is for dogs or
groundhogs. Now I wouldn't be bored.
Now I would know too much.
Now I would know.

3 comments:

  1. Hi, Mrs. B! I never knew that Atwood was also a poet. That woman is so talented. My favorite Atwood is The Blind Assassin, which was a very engaging read.

    Also, I see that you're reading Manservant and Maidservant. How are you finding it? I have a copy of this and I stopped reading it for the meantime since I couldn't get over the fact that most of the text in the novel is in dialogue form!

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  2. Hi Peter - I'm reading Manservant and Maidservant because there's a group read in a few weeks hosted by Stuck in a Book You should join! So far, it's not an easy read. It's hard to get used to her style and I'm not sure if I like this book yet.

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  3. I love this picture of Atwood. I too am reading Manservant...am about half way through and quite like it.

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